May 30th, 2025
Hello darling. I saw a bunch of people on Twitter making these, so I wanted to join in. If there's ever a couples trend, I make sure we do it at one point in time. The trend isn't over until Canoé participates.I love you very much. You mean the world to me, and I seriously cannot fathom how I survived until I met you. I suppose it was just the world keeping me alive so we could find each other... I like that thought. I'm glad we did find each other, even if I was pretty much at my lowest when we did become friends.I'm glad I'm comfortable with you. Since... Everything with Angel happened, I never thought I'd be able to trust someone fully again. But here you are. You hopped into my heart like the cute little bunny you are. How dare you. Making me all soft... But I like this feeling. I'm so thankful that you helped me find my happiness. I hope I can return the favor.I adore seeing bunnies now. Every time I see a rabbit in my yard, I smile and think of you. I love you. I love everything about you, and everything I associate with you. You're so wonderful to me. I love you, okay? If you say you're a bad partner again I think it will be my turn for brick throwing. Just kidding... I'll just pet you really aggressively. Like some of the bunny videos I send you.

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May 31st, 2025
I think I'm going to turn this into another rant page... I love you very much. You make my days so much better just by talking to me... I say that a lot, but it's true. Life is pretty boring without you. Talking to you is most definitely the highlight of my day.I'm excited for May. I can't believe our one year anniversary is less than two months away... I love you so much, more than I can put into words. I think I'd be droning on forever.

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April 1st, 2025
I don't love you. Just kidding, April Fools! I love you with all my heart. I can't bring myself to do an actual prank on you. One, I don't like pranks in general and they confuse me a lot. And two, I feel like that would be mean. I don't want to be mean to you. Honestly, I wouldn't even know what to do if I wanted to. I never understood the appeal of pranks and all.Anyway, I'm back again. I doubt you'll check this often, but I'll update it nonetheless. You make me really happy, okay? Please come talk to me if you need me. Even if it's only to ask for animal videos is fine. I just don't want you wallowing in your sorrow alone. That's what I was doing before you came along... So I want you to know that I will always be here for you. Even if you don't want my help, just know it's always an option. I've been repeating this a lot lately, but I just... Thought you should know.

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April 2nd, 2025
Can I explain my love for you in Mafuyu terms? Like how she says Kanade's songs make her feel warm? I've noticed that explaining my feelings is easier like that.You make my chest feel really warm, like how she described Kanade's songs. I haven't felt this way for anyone else. It's... really warm. Not a searing, scalding heat, but a comforting warmth. Like getting a heated blanket and a cup of tea right after you come inside from a snowstorm. Does this make sense? I hope it does. It makes sense to me.Off that topic, someone on TikTok told me that my posts for and about you were "risky". I don't know what they meant by that. The post was about something similar to what we talked about a while ago, about the soulmates thing? I said that even if our souls were bound to others, I'd still find you and love you. They said that was a "risky" thing to say. I didn't understand. I still don't. What's so risky about devotion?Social media has ruined love, I think. I've seen people say that as soon as the 'honeymoon phase' ends, they break up. Why would you do that? I think that just proves that you never truly loved them, just the feeling of love they gave. It's upsetting. Why aren't some people willing to go through the good and the bad with their partners? I don't understand it.

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April 3rd, 2025
Yesterday wasn't very good, I don't think. I feel a bit sick writing this, I can't explain why. Mainly because I don't know exactly why myself. I just have a bad feeling. I'm really sorry. I don't know why I'm apologizing, I just am. I feel bad for a lot of things I've done to you. I was thinking about that yesterday. I can be really selfish. I don't know.My friends were comforting me, but I don't think they should have. Anyway... It's whatever, at this point. It was months ago already. But I hope my mistakes don't make you think of me poorly. I feel really bad about the problems I tend to cause you with my insecurities.That dream messed me up too. Ugh. I've been pretty paranoid since the things with the anon pretending to be me. But... It's whatever. Did I tell you that I love you yet? I love you.Today my friend shared some relationship advice with me. It was kind of stupid, but it made me laugh. He told me that her friend said "Love is like a fart: If you have to force it, it's probably shit". Their exact words, but I cleaned it up a little for formatting purposes. It's an odd way to phrase it, but I think it makes sense, in all honesty.It's the same about anything, like... A more recent example, your feelings. I can't force you to open up to me. It would most definitely end badly. I don't want that, so I wait. I'm impatient with most things, but I try my best to be patient with this. Because I know how much it matters.I know this kind of sounds stupid, with how it was phrased. I'm sorry about that. But it kind of helped me with my paranoia, stupid as it is. I'm trying my best to be more positive instead of isolating myself or splitting on you. Because that will just make everything worse, right? So I'm trying to get better at coping. My friends have been helping. I think I'm doing well... I hope I am, at least.Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. DM me if you need me, okay? I know I keep reminding you of that, I'm sorry. I feel like it might seem like I'm pressuring you, I don't mean that. I'm just saying... If you ever need a distraction, I'm always here. I have a bunch of animal videos ready in my bookmarks. I love you.

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April 4th, 2025
I started writing this yesterday, but I didn't publish or finish it until today. I was just bored last night, and decided to talk here.I read through your bearblog entry, and looked at /Ariyuu. It's super cute... You're really talented when it comes to making rentries. Anyway..Emotions aren't cringe. They're normal. Writing this, I'm currently judging myself for saying stuff like this, because I think pretty similarly to the things you said in that rentry: I'm not human, so I shouldn't feel. Right? Well, you insist I'm human, so I think it's only fair if I believe in your humanity as well.You've always been human to me, even if I didn't treat you like it sometimes.. I was thinking about that recently. I'm still really sorry about it... Anyway. I admired you for it before I approached you. I watched some conversations you had in DiscoDeb and with Neptune from afar. Sometimes, I envied how human I thought you were. But... Now that I know you better... I don't feel that jealousy anymore, even if it was small to begin with. What I'm trying to say is, you'll always be human in my eyes. Nothing you do or say can change that.You've always been there for me, and you always support me whenever I think of myself as inhuman. You keep reassuring me, even when I don't want to be reassured. Sometimes, it upsets me a lot to be called human. I wonder if you feel that way too. But... I feel like I don't deserve that title, so I sometimes lash out when people do refer to me as human. I don't think I've ever felt annoyed with you believing in my humanity, though. Maybe once or twice, but probably only when I was in a super bad mood. Anyway... This is supposed to be about you, not me.The point is... I love you. And you're insanely human to me. So human that it made late 2023 - early 2024 me jealous. Does that prove anything? I hope it does. Here's a video for you. That's us. I'm the cat giving you kisses.I like seeing cats interact with bunnies. It reminds me of us. Same with dogs interacting with bunnies. And bunnies with other bunnies. Honestly, any animal with a bunny can be me and you if I put my mind to it. I'm so boyfriendpilled!This is us too. I'm the black cat. I like seeing black and orange cats... They remind me of us as well. Again, anything can remind me of us or you if I think hard enough. I just love you that much.